ADDICTION...

One thing that has always been a MAJOR part of my life is....

LIP GLOSS and LIP STICK..

I know what your thinking..what girl doesnt appreciate a nice complimenting stick of MAC lipstick or a tube of flawless MAC lipgloss....'

BUT... I honestly think im addicted, I have to have some sort of lipgloss or lipstick on my lips at all times.....its like my lips are naked without it...

I even put on lipgloss before I go to sleep...smh

Sad to say I feel like I couldnt live without it....

Every one has their own fetish or what not...and I def know what mines are....

The sad part is I think its hereditary...the apple didnt fall to far from the tree....like LADY like DAUGHTER ...

NUMB...

"Incapable of action or of feeling emotion"...."Lacking or deficient in emotion or feeling"...




pretty self explanatory...


Over the past year the most ish has happened, i have dealt with a lot of obstacles...its at the point where nothing really phases me anymore...


I only smile cause i have to, not cause i want to....


Keeping a comfortable distance...cause none of it is ever worth the risk...


A tight grip of reality...


SN: Love Lauryn Hill and this song...

Just How I Am *Shrugs*

I swear it should be against the law of the level of stress that I have 24/7.  I always think for the worst and plan for the worst...I rarely look at the good in anything...im what you would call a REALIST. 


Realist- "a person who tends to view or represent things as they really are"


I have a hard time to see the good in things that i can clearly see all the bad...just how i always been.  


"Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me"


I plan not to even get fooled once..I will not tolerate the BS of people.


BUT on a lighter note...its a new year with better opportunities, lets pray for the best and ability to handle the worst! 


Shout out to my Fantastic Dancer Ms. Kaylah...Love you hoe and your positive ways!

“Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.”

IPod my other half...

Music is my sanity... its always some song but there that relates to how your feeling at a certain moment in time...

Music is like the only thing that truly understands me...shoot imma date music whole time...it can pull feelings or emotions out of me that I didnt even know i had...

I prefer to listen to music then watch tv...

With all this being said...im beyond HEARTBROKEN that my ipod was stolen... Thinking about it makes me sad ... hopefully this christmas will bless me with another one!!!

Relieved...^_^

I can honestly say I truly needed this break from school and other things... I havent felt stress free in over a year and some change.  this is truly BLISS for me...lounge around with friends and family is all I need. BOUW.. lol just happy to be back in the state of mind that I was always the happiest in.

SN: Its Christmas time!! My own personal tree in my room!!!

Something NEW ^_^

On a day-to-day basis I have opportunities placed in my life, as does everyone else. I feel like its time for me to indulge in all opportunities.  I have came to the point in my life that I feel that I have trapped myself in a routine.  I am at the point in my life where I want to experience NEW things daily...there is so much in life that I have yet to do...and everyday is not promised.  I try to make the most out of what I can and cannot do; and turn my CAN NOTS into CANS.

"What to do, what to do." - For a few weeks now I have made a vow to try something NEW everyday.  No matter how small the thing is it has to be something I never tried before.  It has been going well so far BUT the easiest things have been done already. Soooo now its time for a major change and NEW things. Slowly but surely there should be a turn around for feeling this way.... IT NEEDS TO HURRY UP!!

Thoughts.. Its been a while!

The things that matter then have a hard time remaining as important now.  Not that my drive has changed just something that was once the most important thing in my life just gets snatched right from under my finger tips and I cant do a DARN thing about it.  UUUGGHHHHHH (screams here) The feeling of being powerless is not something I can cope with easily.  Welp my life is not over and I need to realize that there is a bigger  picture that I have yet to paint that is being developed through my trials and tribulations.

SOOOOOOO (Kevin Hart voice) look at the good when your weighing your bad  ^_^

A Tangent...

Its alot you dont see, with eyes that never open,
when you try to listen, but everything is muffled,
when you try to speak, but your lips dont seem to form the words,
what do you do, what do others think of you,
to over crowd your mind with nonsense is a waste of existence,
take the good with the bad and keep the positive going,
if your eyes deceive you, learn to tell what is a lie and what is truth,
if your ears accidently hear something wrong, know whats right,
if your lips form words you didnt mean to say, teach them to do otherwise.
Its alot that goes into nothing, but nothing cannot go into alot!

these are just words that are rambling off the top of my head and the more i type the more they make sense!

think on it and you be the judge