I can honestly say I truly needed this break from school and other things... I havent felt stress free in over a year and some change. this is truly BLISS for me...lounge around with friends and family is all I need. BOUW.. lol just happy to be back in the state of mind that I was always the happiest in.
On a day-to-day basis I have opportunities placed in my life, as does everyone else. I feel like its time for me to indulge in all opportunities. I have came to the point in my life that I feel that I have trapped myself in a routine. I am at the point in my life where I want to experience NEW things daily...there is so much in life that I have yet to do...and everyday is not promised. I try to make the most out of what I can and cannot do; and turn my CAN NOTS into CANS.
"What to do, what to do." - For a few weeks now I have made a vow to try something NEW everyday. No matter how small the thing is it has to be something I never tried before. It has been going well so far BUT the easiest things have been done already. Soooo now its time for a major change and NEW things. Slowly but surely there should be a turn around for feeling this way.... IT NEEDS TO HURRY UP!!
The things that matter then have a hard time remaining as important now. Not that my drive has changed just something that was once the most important thing in my life just gets snatched right from under my finger tips and I cant do a DARN thing about it. UUUGGHHHHHH (screams here) The feeling of being powerless is not something I can cope with easily. Welp my life is not over and I need to realize that there is a bigger picture that I have yet to paint that is being developed through my trials and tribulations.
Its alot you dont see, with eyes that never open,
when you try to listen, but everything is muffled,
when you try to speak, but your lips dont seem to form the words,
what do you do, what do others think of you,
to over crowd your mind with nonsense is a waste of existence,
take the good with the bad and keep the positive going,
if your eyes deceive you, learn to tell what is a lie and what is truth,
if your ears accidently hear something wrong, know whats right,
if your lips form words you didnt mean to say, teach them to do otherwise.
Its alot that goes into nothing, but nothing cannot go into alot!
these are just words that are rambling off the top of my head and the more i type the more they make sense!
think on it and you be the judge
I came across this picture today! NO im not hating I just feel like Rihanna is going through something! Here's a picture to show what I'm talking about.
When I wake up each and every morning its a new obstacle that presents itself, whether it is school work, social life, or over all stress. I find myself drowning in my school work (not saying that is a bad thing) and doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING else!! It has became such a distraction that I feel that I have lost contact with LIVING LIFE! I forget that I can enjoy my summer alongside elevating in my education! I do not have to have one or the other, I can consume both and have a balance! =@}
